This ain't your Mac n' Cheese Blues
It's the my husband & baby-daddy's deployed and I'm left to fend for myself blues.
Watching my baby girl miss her daddy hurts my heart. Watching my mother-in-law attempt strength talking about her baby boy being gone hurts my heart. Seeing him on the other side of the world via skype hurts my heart.
To give you a little preface about my marriage, we've been married about a year and a half, been together 3 years next month. Out relationship began a month before his basic training, although we knew each other 4 years before we became "us". A while into it we tried for a baby for a few months and right as we decided to stop trying, we found out we were pregnant. Now we have a 17 mo. old and all the stress of the beginning of marriage along with military stresses. Needless to say, life has been crazy for us.
Last month, we both came to individual decisions about our religious beliefs. Oddly enough, both practically at the same time and for the same reasons for the most part. Since then our relationship has done a 180 and we both feel that things are turning around. God is helping us. I'm not going to doubt God, but if you do then I encourage you to watch my relationship blossom, because I can promise you that is God's work at its finest.
I'm so anxious to have my husband home. I miss all the obvious things, the physical aspects, but so much more than the physical is the mental. The connection we had when we got together, it's blossoming again and my heart is overwhelmed with comfort when I think about the beginning of next year when he is back in the states.
I miss the freckles on his ear & the way he used to hold my hand in the car.
I miss silly pictures with him & taking naps on the couch in his arms.
I miss my daughter getting excited about daddy coming home & I miss his morning kisses.
Deployment, please end pronto.
Sincerely,
Lovebug's Lovebug
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Recent Reads
Fifty Shades Trilogy
E. L. James
I began Fifty Shades of Grey over 2 weeks ago and finished reading it just yesterday. I'd give the trilogy as a whole a 4 star rating, however each book has it's own rating within those 4 stars. I'll be seeing the movie out of curiosity.
Fifty Shades of Grey
While I would give it a 3 star rating this is not a book I would read again. I probably would not have read the rest of this trilogy had I not bought them as a set. Romance novels usually are not my cup of tea, but with all the hype I wanted to see what it was about. While the book did have a dirty scene or two and a dash of actual romance, I didn't find it entirely intriguing. I could argue that the only reason that the book kept my attention at all is because I am deprived due to a deployed husband, but it's not that important of a battle to fight.
Fifty Shades Darker
I am elated to have bought the trilogy after reading this book! It suits it's genre perfectly, as would any book written about the middle stages of a relationship. Learning about potential lovers is captivating and new which was captured well upon these pages. I give book two a 5 star rating as E. L. James comes off as a superb author here.
Fifty Shade Freed
Drama drama drama! With each page turn something was happening, and as I read I felt like it was just too much, which indeed life can be too much at the wrong time. It was still well written and I was impressed, but left with a whiplash-feeling from wondering where each event would lead. Book three receives a 4 star rating in my opinion.
Sexperiment
Ed & Lisa Young
I came across Sexperiment after my recent (only about a month ago) realization of God's existence. I was in search of my church and a friend pointed me to one nearby, so I checked out their webpage which had this book plastered to the screen, and to my eyes! It is a phenomenal book and has taught me a ton! I ordered one from amazon and sent it to my husband who should be receiving it in a few days. Ed & Lisa Young (Pastor & his wife) discuss how 7 days of love-making in and out of the bedroom can help any sexual relationship. Although they do point out quite a few references to God and how He intends for sex to be used between husband and wife, it can help couples of all sorts. I give this book 5 stars, and will be returning to it for guidance once my husband is home for many years to come!
Got the Life
Fieldy
I am beyond thankful for this book. My husband came across it about a month ago over in the foreign land we're fighting for. A previous soldier had left it behind. Fieldy is from Korn, a popular band with Rockers of all types. In it, he goes over his life story and his coming to find God. I think this pointed out to my husband a lot about life and growing up, but definitely so much about finding God and letting him lead you. Our life will be forever changed because of his run in with Got the Life. I would love to thank Fieldy one day because it helped my husband have faith. The book as a read for fun I wouldn't usually pick, but because it is helpful beyond words I give the book 5 stars.
That's the down-low on my recent reads.
Currently I am working on The Power of a Praying Wife.
I'll update you all with my findings once I'm done!
E. L. James
I began Fifty Shades of Grey over 2 weeks ago and finished reading it just yesterday. I'd give the trilogy as a whole a 4 star rating, however each book has it's own rating within those 4 stars. I'll be seeing the movie out of curiosity.
Fifty Shades of Grey
While I would give it a 3 star rating this is not a book I would read again. I probably would not have read the rest of this trilogy had I not bought them as a set. Romance novels usually are not my cup of tea, but with all the hype I wanted to see what it was about. While the book did have a dirty scene or two and a dash of actual romance, I didn't find it entirely intriguing. I could argue that the only reason that the book kept my attention at all is because I am deprived due to a deployed husband, but it's not that important of a battle to fight.
Fifty Shades Darker
I am elated to have bought the trilogy after reading this book! It suits it's genre perfectly, as would any book written about the middle stages of a relationship. Learning about potential lovers is captivating and new which was captured well upon these pages. I give book two a 5 star rating as E. L. James comes off as a superb author here.
Fifty Shade Freed
Drama drama drama! With each page turn something was happening, and as I read I felt like it was just too much, which indeed life can be too much at the wrong time. It was still well written and I was impressed, but left with a whiplash-feeling from wondering where each event would lead. Book three receives a 4 star rating in my opinion.
Sexperiment
Ed & Lisa Young
I came across Sexperiment after my recent (only about a month ago) realization of God's existence. I was in search of my church and a friend pointed me to one nearby, so I checked out their webpage which had this book plastered to the screen, and to my eyes! It is a phenomenal book and has taught me a ton! I ordered one from amazon and sent it to my husband who should be receiving it in a few days. Ed & Lisa Young (Pastor & his wife) discuss how 7 days of love-making in and out of the bedroom can help any sexual relationship. Although they do point out quite a few references to God and how He intends for sex to be used between husband and wife, it can help couples of all sorts. I give this book 5 stars, and will be returning to it for guidance once my husband is home for many years to come!
Got the Life
Fieldy
I am beyond thankful for this book. My husband came across it about a month ago over in the foreign land we're fighting for. A previous soldier had left it behind. Fieldy is from Korn, a popular band with Rockers of all types. In it, he goes over his life story and his coming to find God. I think this pointed out to my husband a lot about life and growing up, but definitely so much about finding God and letting him lead you. Our life will be forever changed because of his run in with Got the Life. I would love to thank Fieldy one day because it helped my husband have faith. The book as a read for fun I wouldn't usually pick, but because it is helpful beyond words I give the book 5 stars.
That's the down-low on my recent reads.
Currently I am working on The Power of a Praying Wife.
I'll update you all with my findings once I'm done!
Easy Way Out
Baby Cuddles & After-effects
I was just about to begin typing last night at 11 something PM as I heard my 17 month old princess whimpering from her bed. She's having a rough time, missing her daddy. Love bug, her daddy is away in one of those poor countries who America is spending there time on lately. This makes for a sad Baby Bear and Mama Bear. Baby doll has been having sleep issues and I just can't seem to leave her crying so like any mama would care for her bear cub, I jump to her rescue and cuddle her through our hibernation. I guess my mothering skills got in the way of blogging last night because now I have no earthly idea what I was going to blog about. Hence the subject of my post today.
When I let Baby Bear sleep with me, there are plenty of effects:
Effect 1- Restless sleep due to being kicked in the side repeatedly.
Effect 2- Love bug seems to ACTUALLY skype/call, in turn waking up Baby Bear.
Effect 2.1- This leads to an indecisive Mama Bear.
Is it good I got to hear from him or bad that Baby Bear woke up? Who knows.
Effect 2.2- At the bright and early wake-up call Mama Bear makes bad decisions such as not doing her hair and stopping for the healthiest breakfast choice, McDonalds sausage cheese biscuits.
Effect 2.3- A grumpy Baby Bear who doesn't want a nap.
Effect 3- Some sort of super close bond later in life.
Needless to say, I won't be refusing her requests to cuddle anytime soon, no matter the hour or reason. I'm not very certain why co-sleeping is such a bad idea, unless you're just a heavy sleeper. Baby Bear has slept with me anytime she had a stressful night for the past 17 months, and she's turning out just fine, and definitely loves her Mama Bear.
I'll post again later when I remember my topic from last night, or think up something even better.
Ta-ta & Toodles,
Co-Sleep Supporter
I was just about to begin typing last night at 11 something PM as I heard my 17 month old princess whimpering from her bed. She's having a rough time, missing her daddy. Love bug, her daddy is away in one of those poor countries who America is spending there time on lately. This makes for a sad Baby Bear and Mama Bear. Baby doll has been having sleep issues and I just can't seem to leave her crying so like any mama would care for her bear cub, I jump to her rescue and cuddle her through our hibernation. I guess my mothering skills got in the way of blogging last night because now I have no earthly idea what I was going to blog about. Hence the subject of my post today.
When I let Baby Bear sleep with me, there are plenty of effects:
Effect 1- Restless sleep due to being kicked in the side repeatedly.
Effect 2- Love bug seems to ACTUALLY skype/call, in turn waking up Baby Bear.
Effect 2.1- This leads to an indecisive Mama Bear.
Is it good I got to hear from him or bad that Baby Bear woke up? Who knows.
Effect 2.2- At the bright and early wake-up call Mama Bear makes bad decisions such as not doing her hair and stopping for the healthiest breakfast choice, McDonalds sausage cheese biscuits.
Effect 2.3- A grumpy Baby Bear who doesn't want a nap.
Effect 3- Some sort of super close bond later in life.
Needless to say, I won't be refusing her requests to cuddle anytime soon, no matter the hour or reason. I'm not very certain why co-sleeping is such a bad idea, unless you're just a heavy sleeper. Baby Bear has slept with me anytime she had a stressful night for the past 17 months, and she's turning out just fine, and definitely loves her Mama Bear.
I'll post again later when I remember my topic from last night, or think up something even better.
Ta-ta & Toodles,
Co-Sleep Supporter
Thursday, July 19, 2012
The Beginning of an "Era"
Its the little things...
Yes, the little things which have brought me time and time again to the thought of starting up a blog for the first time since I was something like 14 and Xanga was a cool place to hang out. I find that I keep plenty of thoughts to myself, and it's time to let the world hear them... per-say.Fascinating thoughts
I will probably end up blogging about more than I could list, but the major points in my life will most likely end up surrounded around:Family (and the ups and downs involved with each branch of the tree)
I have a husband who is finishing up his military contract within the next two years, and my daughter and I are currently dealing with his one and only deployment. He & I have been through a few things more than most 22 year olds, married or not & I wouldn't change him for the world. We're coming up on 3 years spent together at the end of August.
Our daughter is a 17 month old giant, the size of most 2.5 year olds we run into, due to her daddy being 6'4".
I am not close to any of my family. By not close, I suppose I really mean I'm rather distant from them. I have means to contact them but prefer not to for many a different reason. I'm sure some of these reasons will appear in my blog accordingly. I DO have a friend of about 15 years whom I consider a sister. I'll just call her SD for short. She is currently my room mate and will be so until at least when my husband makes it back to my arms safely.
My in-laws; Let's call my husband lovebug just because it is embarrassing and he will be thrown by it. Well lovebug's parents are split, have been for quite a while. So, my mother-in-law's side is definitely closer to me than my father-in-law's, but I can't wait for the day where both sides can accept me and call me up for anything.
Books
I go on random sprees where I can't stop reading, then I have a dry spell for up to years at a time. We'll see what I read during this said blogging era of mine. Currently I am on book 2 of the Fifty Shades series. Book one seemed like it had a little too much hype, good book but no better than I would expect any romance novel to be (I'm usually not into romance novels). I don't have a usual book genre, or movie genre for that matter. I'm fairly well rounded.
Health & Wellness
I have lost 30lbs. within the past year; really it was within a matter of something like 3 months, but with deployment and moving and coping I can't say I've continued to lose, but I have maintained perfectly! I am still in a good workout habit but not up to par with where I was during my weight loss. I was also eating a more rounded diet until the deployment showed me my way back to my sweet tea and fast food. I will conquer these issues before deployment is up. AND I will be able to do a pull-up before then too, no help needed!
Children
I am a mommy and a nanny. I like to teach! I'm currently teaching the 3 year old sign language and her abc's as well as shapes colors and numbers. My daughter joins in when she can sit still for more than 5 minutes. I love doing crafts with them both and can't wait for the 3 month old to get up and moving!
Religion
VERY recently my husband and I both found ourselves at a pit-fall both as individuals and a couple as well as a family. We have turned to god through tough times, and you can ask anyone who knows us, it's beyond unexpected. However, I find myself more convinced each passing day and can't wait til I find the right church for my family so that I can engross myself in learning His word and finding the faith I have been looking for since adolescence.
School
I went to UTA for a year before overworking myself by having a part-time job a full-time job and being a full-time student. I lost my scholarship and gave up entirely too soon. I am currently enrolled in Meditec. It is an online school offering multiple choices. I have found myself at a stand still with my schoolwork since deployment began as well. Slowly but surely I am achieving minute amounts each day. I am about 7/8 of the way done with my first certificate and have two more following completion of the first. Once it is all said and done I will be certified in Medical Transcription, Billing & Coding.
Well I suppose this is enough about me for now. Let the blogging begin!
Ta-Ta my new found friends.
Sincerely,
HOW DO I WORK THIS THING!
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